Throwing Glitter In The Air

I've been tossing a couple of ideas back and forth about what today's blog should be about. My day yesterday was interesting and would make for a very funny entry, but, I'm not feeling very funny today, so I thought about posting my thoughts, and that seemed to be the most appealing to me. I'll post a funny blog later. I promise.


I've been listening to a song called "Glitter In The Air" by Pink over and over today. Half because I have to because I'm not happy with my choreography to it, and then because this song touches me like very few songs have. I don't know if it's because of my dance background, and I know this is going to sound incredibly cheesy, but I feel music. The movement of the song, the lyrics, the melody, everything. It's perfect. It describes my feelings about my life right now in a way that I can't express verbally, and again, it's not just the lyrics, but the song as a whole. I think this is why I'm having a hard time choreographing it. I've got some complex things going on, and it's hard to express those and the way I express myself is with dance. It's like being tongue tied physically. I just don't know what I want to say. I'm feeling very conflicted with a few things right now, and that's coming across in my choreography. I know I just need to stop trying so hard and it'll come more naturally. I wish I had access to the beach. That seemed to work last time.

This song makes me feel hopeful. Right now, I'm at a major turning point in my life and I know which way I have to go. I know which turn I have to take and I'm looking forward to it. I know things will be much better and as afraid as I am, I'll be OK. I'm taking steps to better my life because only I can do that and it's very empowering. I'm in control and I don't have anybody holding me back or trying to take it from me.

I'm even having a hard time trying to find the words to describe how this song makes me feel. I can only dance these emotions.


Have you ever fed a lover with just your hands?
Close your eyes and trust it, just trust it
Have you ever thrown a fist full of glitter in the air?
Have you ever looked fear in the face
And said I just don't care?

It's only half past the point of no return
The tip of the iceberg, the sun before the burn
The thunder before lightning, the breath before the phrase
Have you ever felt this way?

Have you ever hated yourself for staring at the phone?
Your whole life waiting on the ring to prove you're not alone
Have you ever been touched so gently you had to cry?
Have you ever invited a stranger to come inside?

It's only half past the point of oblivion
The hourglass on the table, the walk before the run
The breath before the kiss and the fear before the flames
Have you ever felt this way?

La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

There you are, sitting in the garden
Clutching my coffee, calling me sugar
You called me sugar

Have you ever wished for an endless night?
Lassoed the moon and the stars and pulled that rope tight
Have you ever held your breath and asked yourself
Will it ever get better than tonight? Tonight